the crushed part of our lives....

Some people are going to find this post a bit weird as it does not match with my general perception... I am actually the one who tries to stay away from all these fundas... But, i dont know, this has just cropped up in my mind and so, i thought of writing something on it....
A crush... Well, we all have had crushes at some time of our lives.... Its like this awesome feeling... A feeling that we've all experienced and want to have more of it... I personally had a crush on almost every single girl I know at some point of my life or the other.... And i feel its actually good... It helped me discover the charm in all those girls' personality.... And with these experiences i've, actually, come up with a philososphy... Different girls have got a different charms but still they boil down to a few categories...
Like, First of all, there are those beautiful girls, on seeing whom u always think that they are the prettiest faces in the galaxy.... All of us have developed a crush on atleast one of these type girls... Its later that we realize, that a pretty face is not enough... And most of them turn out to be really dumb....
After that, there are these really nice girls who talk very nicely to you and are liked by everybody and take care of the people around and do all the "NICE" things.... We all start thinking that these type of girls are perfect... But, actually, sometimes too nice becomes too bad.... We also want a bad side(a wild side rather!!) in our chic... As they say, good girls go to heaven, bad girls go everywhere...
And then, there are those flirting types.... U know, girls who fool around a lot and flirt with you
all the time... We all think that she likes us... That she might be having a crush on us... And, just to reciprocate it, we develop a crush on them... And, one day all are dreams are thrashed when we see her flirting with our best friend... The once angel now becomes a s**t... But, its not her fault... Its in her nature..... Its her way of talking to people... And she is not every time a s**t...
Then, there are those cool chics.... These girls have very particular characteristics... They listen to cool music, play sports(usually not a girly one), wear clothes that are not meant to attract boys all the time, have very few(in some cases, none) girl friends and stuff like that.... Basically, these girls do what they like to do and dont care about the rest of the world... Most of the time, they are not accepted in the girly world.... Thats what makes them so special... They have got some kind of a oomph, that attracts us to them... But, later we realize that we actually like our women HOT rather than COOL...
And, there are chics with whom, u think, you have a cosmic connection or sumthing... Finally, a girl with whom u can discuss cricket or your playstations and even play computer games... Girls to whom we can tell all our feelings and always expect a support from them... These girls sometimes make you believe very strongly that you are in love with them... But, generally that is not the case... We start finding our life partner in a discussion partner.... But, we should understand that she is a person with whom we can talk things but cant get romantic... These girls, however, later prove to be very good friends....
And finally, of course, there are chics with big b**bs....
So, that was about the categorization of the girls you can have a crush on... No matter which one is your current crush, its a new feeling for every other girl.... And, ya a crush is nothing more than just a happy, nice and pleasent feeling... Its a lot different than the feeling of love... A crush is never that serious.... When u have a crush on somebody, it doesnt mater to you if the other person doesnt know about it... But, when you are in love, its always related to long term commitment... U want the person, whom u love, to know about it... U want to be with her all the time... But, when u have a crush on sumone, u just feel good when the person is around you... It feels good to talk to her.... U think about her all the time... But, when you are in love, u cant get her out of your head.... And i personally feel that a crush is a much better and healthier feeling than love... Love most of the time has serious consequences on your life.. While a crush never does that... Its just a harmless and innocent feeling... Thats what a crush is....
So, this was about my funda of "CRUSH"... Some of you might agree with it... Some of you may not... But, this is what i think.... This post has already been a very long one, so, i better stop...

The B-word story of my life

Alright... My first post.. Writing this one out of complete frustration...
This one is about the B-name that i got in IITR and how it became the scar on my forehead which pains whenever i am close to you-know-who....
This story is about a teenage boy living a normal, happy life with his mom and sis in a small house in Delhi i.e. ME.... The story begins when i joined the IIT-JEE rat race... Fortunately(or unfortunately as you would later come to know), i got selected in the most shitty exam in the whole world... Lakhs of students appeared for the exam.. But, only 4000 or so got selected... And, I was one of them... I was really happy(well.. so, I told everyone).... My mother was finally proud of me... And suddenly i became a celebrity in the neighborhood..i had my own 15 min. of fame... Anyways, thats a different story(and rather a long one) altogether... so, we'll talk about it some other day... So, continuing with my story... I got admission to IIT Roorkee(does anybody even know that UOR is now an IIT??)... At first everything about this institute seemed sooooooooooo good(except for the part called SB)... People seemed nice... The hostels were not as bad as I thought.. I made a lot of good friends... The studies seemed good... The labs seemed interesting... Everything about this place seemed so nice... I was actually enjoying living here... hmmm.... So, this looks like a nice, sweet story doesn't it... But this ain't one...
I(being a normal, fun-loving boy), started to have some fun by playing pranks, teasing people and fooling around(as we used to do back home)... Well, these activities of mine included some daring stuff too. I thought all this would be fun, as it used to be in the school... But, what I didn't know was that this would become the biggest mistake of my life... All these things were new to the people around here... For them these things were as daring as jumping from 100 storey building... Most of them were like-"REALLY!!!" or "How could someone do that??" or "OH MY GOD!!"... And I was like-"Whats the big deal??" At first it seemed great... I thought people took me as a cool guy who is not afraid of anything... This was the time when people started calling me by the B-word... Finally, i had a pet name which sounded good too( compared to my past names which cant be written here considering this a family blog)... So, i quickly got adapted to the B-word... I never knew the bloody consequences of this name.... But, suddenly it started happening to me... People no more considered me a person whom they can talk to normally... Some thought that i didn't deserve to be among them.. Some thought that they can never talk to me normally because i have done things they cant even imagine to do... well, for the rest i was just a laughing stock... Most of the people thought that i was just trying to justify my B-name in everything that i do... So, they started maintaining their distance from me... Guys, who i used to consider my best friends, stopped even talking to me, just to show a girl that they had nothing to do with me(and they call me sick!!)... They started thinking that being my friend would put them in bad light in front of others... It was as if the people who had no other work to do, most of them were found discussing me and criticizing my activities.... Now, everything i did, seemed an awful act of B-giri to them.... All of this just because I did some things out of my innocent stupidity..
U think this was bad??? Well, u haven't listened to the worst part... Now, I've got some jackass idiots saying only one line to me almost all the time-"B___ banne ki koshish!!"... what is this crap??? Its as if these people cant say anything else... Well, these guys are no more than a broken record to me... I've also got people writing blogs telling me that i dont deserve this title and that i'll lose the title soon... BULLSHIT!!! BULlSHIT!!! To these people I want to say that first of all, this is no title... Its just a name, a pet name by which my friends call me and nothing more than that... i never ordered anyone to call me by this "TITLE".... I never put a knife on anyone's neck or a gun to anyone's face, so they call me by this name... U dont want to call me by this name??? FINE!!! I would rather appreciate it... U can call me by whatever name u want... U think i give a damn about this.... I have had many names in the past and many of them were offending too... So, it doesnt matter to me... And second of all, Do u want this so called TITLE of yours??? FINE!!! Go ahead and have it and be happy... I dont know what fun u people get out of saying these shit things... But, i just want you to know that i can no more take this crap of yours.... To people who cant stand me, i want to say ",|,,".... Leave me alone.... i am what i am.. and i am happy this way.... So, if you got a problem with me "bloody f*** you!!!"...
So, this was about my B-name, which started off as a good feeling and ended up with me having no real friends, completely ruining my life for the rest of my stay in IITR(at least)... So, now its just "main aur meri tanhai..".... I think that was enough for this post... I'll take out rest of my frustration in the next one...