Thursday, September 20, 2007

The B-word story of my life

Alright... My first post.. Writing this one out of complete frustration...
This one is about the B-name that i got in IITR and how it became the scar on my forehead which pains whenever i am close to you-know-who....
This story is about a teenage boy living a normal, happy life with his mom and sis in a small house in Delhi i.e. ME.... The story begins when i joined the IIT-JEE rat race... Fortunately(or unfortunately as you would later come to know), i got selected in the most shitty exam in the whole world... Lakhs of students appeared for the exam.. But, only 4000 or so got selected... And, I was one of them... I was really happy(well.. so, I told everyone).... My mother was finally proud of me... And suddenly i became a celebrity in the neighborhood..i had my own 15 min. of fame... Anyways, thats a different story(and rather a long one) altogether... so, we'll talk about it some other day... So, continuing with my story... I got admission to IIT Roorkee(does anybody even know that UOR is now an IIT??)... At first everything about this institute seemed sooooooooooo good(except for the part called SB)... People seemed nice... The hostels were not as bad as I thought.. I made a lot of good friends... The studies seemed good... The labs seemed interesting... Everything about this place seemed so nice... I was actually enjoying living here... hmmm.... So, this looks like a nice, sweet story doesn't it... But this ain't one...
I(being a normal, fun-loving boy), started to have some fun by playing pranks, teasing people and fooling around(as we used to do back home)... Well, these activities of mine included some daring stuff too. I thought all this would be fun, as it used to be in the school... But, what I didn't know was that this would become the biggest mistake of my life... All these things were new to the people around here... For them these things were as daring as jumping from 100 storey building... Most of them were like-"REALLY!!!" or "How could someone do that??" or "OH MY GOD!!"... And I was like-"Whats the big deal??" At first it seemed great... I thought people took me as a cool guy who is not afraid of anything... This was the time when people started calling me by the B-word... Finally, i had a pet name which sounded good too( compared to my past names which cant be written here considering this a family blog)... So, i quickly got adapted to the B-word... I never knew the bloody consequences of this name.... But, suddenly it started happening to me... People no more considered me a person whom they can talk to normally... Some thought that i didn't deserve to be among them.. Some thought that they can never talk to me normally because i have done things they cant even imagine to do... well, for the rest i was just a laughing stock... Most of the people thought that i was just trying to justify my B-name in everything that i do... So, they started maintaining their distance from me... Guys, who i used to consider my best friends, stopped even talking to me, just to show a girl that they had nothing to do with me(and they call me sick!!)... They started thinking that being my friend would put them in bad light in front of others... It was as if the people who had no other work to do, most of them were found discussing me and criticizing my activities.... Now, everything i did, seemed an awful act of B-giri to them.... All of this just because I did some things out of my innocent stupidity..
U think this was bad??? Well, u haven't listened to the worst part... Now, I've got some jackass idiots saying only one line to me almost all the time-"B___ banne ki koshish!!"... what is this crap??? Its as if these people cant say anything else... Well, these guys are no more than a broken record to me... I've also got people writing blogs telling me that i dont deserve this title and that i'll lose the title soon... BULLSHIT!!! BULlSHIT!!! To these people I want to say that first of all, this is no title... Its just a name, a pet name by which my friends call me and nothing more than that... i never ordered anyone to call me by this "TITLE".... I never put a knife on anyone's neck or a gun to anyone's face, so they call me by this name... U dont want to call me by this name??? FINE!!! I would rather appreciate it... U can call me by whatever name u want... U think i give a damn about this.... I have had many names in the past and many of them were offending too... So, it doesnt matter to me... And second of all, Do u want this so called TITLE of yours??? FINE!!! Go ahead and have it and be happy... I dont know what fun u people get out of saying these shit things... But, i just want you to know that i can no more take this crap of yours.... To people who cant stand me, i want to say ",|,,".... Leave me alone.... i am what i am.. and i am happy this way.... So, if you got a problem with me "bloody f*** you!!!"...
So, this was about my B-name, which started off as a good feeling and ended up with me having no real friends, completely ruining my life for the rest of my stay in IITR(at least)... So, now its just "main aur meri tanhai..".... I think that was enough for this post... I'll take out rest of my frustration in the next one...

20 comments:

Anudeep Gupta said...
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Anudeep Gupta said...

hmmm.... very frustrated u seem... so i'll try to make it short...

1. You had mar the fun spirit of the post which talked about u loosing the b-title!!
,|,, to you

2. People here dont call u B___ becoz of those superfluous activities of urs, but u earned the fame becoz of the careless arrogant attitude u show off at times while talking(didnt want to say that)!!!

3. And most importantly!!, may be ur once best friend stopped talking to you for a while, but mind it, its you now who is maintaining the distance!!! don't blame others!!! and for what reasons!!! just becoz he once stopped talking to u!! or whatever!!! c'mon dude, such f***ing stupid reasons shall not be enough to make u refrain from talking to the person u ever considered ur best friend!!!

really sorry buddy, but this much explaination was necessary i believe!!!

* and one last thing... really curious bout it... what on this earth, made u that frust at 4 in morning??!!!

super saiyan 4 said...

Dude come on.
life has a lot to go.
cheer up .
besides u aren't friendless(in IITR).
not being close friend doesn't mean friendship is broken.
n u know the way H****s here r treated like, the way they r discriminated.
wen its not our place we can't help it.
just bear with this for 2 more yrs n after tat this part of ur life, u never have to think about again.

super saiyan 4 said...

after reading wat anudeep wrote
i think u must involve with ur friends back again. Cuz quarrels between friends is common.

Aditya said...

Come on..... Life afterall isnt so bad at iitr!!!! atleast the kind of frustration levels you have shown in the post i feel have blown out of proportions..!!..."Nobody's Perfect"....!!!!!!!

Forget and just ignore those ppl whom you dont like.!!!...

It was kind of the reverse thing for me...at first i was disappointed with this godforsaken place now i love this place..!!!..

You have inspired me to write a post about my feelings about and ppl in iitr..!!!...thnx....


waiting for your next post!

rishabh goel said...

Now, this one is to anudeep... first of all, i dint mean to name the guy who wrote that shit blog... but, it seems u've done it urself... and, second of all, that post of urs didint have any fun spirit for most of the ppl about whom whom u talked about(well, except for some ppl who i dont know u've written such good stuff inspite of spending so less time with them). and second of all, u dont know why ppl call me by the B-name... its after those unfortunate incidents that later made u ppl see B-giri in everything i do or say. And what the hell, i speak in this way, u speak in some other way... its just an indivisuals style... thats it... and lastly, plz dont worry too much about stuff written in the post that is not related to you... u dont know what happened between us.. so, shut the hell up... and yes the line "the f**** stupid reason one" go tell to ur frnd, who stopped talking to me for no damn reason.. its not that i didnt try... but nothing seemed to change... so, plz either u dont get into this shit... or know the whole thing and talk.... and next time around, before writing a comment plz, just for once, think that watevere u r writing is relevant or not...

Anudeep Gupta said...

okkk... now that it seems that i made u angry... my apologies (for last one and may be this one too)... and i have to accept that, who am i to worry bout stuff not related to myself, but then even though i easily can, i don't ignore just like that
so let me tell u.. although u probably won't understand this, but I certainly dealt harder time with the same chap u are talking bout, than u did... but (m-sorry-again to say this) unlike u, i didnt give up, i had to keep trying (even though i never considered him my best friend)... and eventually it worked out...

* btw LOLMAX!!! at 'u dont know what happened in b/w us'... coz nobody here knows more bout the story than me... neither u nor the chap.. nor anyone else... coz nobody else knows the story from both the sides!!!!!

** dont give taunting comment on this one as in 'then be happy with urself and ur chap' or anything like that...

*** i never complaineed bout ur way of talking, me pretty happy with you buddy, its just that i thought u should know it.. else u rock and keep rocking!!

*** and one last thing... that shit post as u call it... was never meant to offend someone and was written only in true fun spirit... and i dont give a f****** damn if u or anyone else didn't find it funny!!!!!

rishabh goel said...

@anudeep.. now, this isnt a taunt... but, again, u plz keep in mind the last line i wrote on my last comment.... and the difficulties u had with your chap were no at all greater than what i had to do... and ya, if u have taken this up... i know why started to try to be friendly with him.. so, dont give me that crap again..Now, (if u r sensible enuf) stop arguing on this topic( again, which doesnt realte to u at all)...and, ya for your kind information... u have heard his side, u have heard my side.. but, u still havent heard the true... and side(so.. plz) and ya.... about the reason why ppl gave me that name its still the same... and lastly, i m happy that it doesnt matter to you if someone didnt like your post.. but, dude u gotta know your limits....

rishabh goel said...

@saiyan... thanx for the advice man... now, this is the kind of comment that i expected from a sensible guy... thanx again for cheering me up.... but, ya i dont know your name, dude....

rishabh goel said...

@aditya... dude, to be honest, i also think that whatever i've written is quite exaggerated... lolzzz... its just that i wanted ppl to know how fed up i am of the way they treat me... and ya.. the thing about me inspiring u to write a blog... it was u in the first place who inspired me write a blog(remember that little chat of ours on g-talk??)

Anudeep Gupta said...

hah!!!
as i said, u wont understand!!!
this was funny... all of this!!!
everything i said!!! everything of it!!! was may b just my perspective, u surely must b knowing better!!
neways... cheer on!!!
life's got lot more...
and we r friendz.. always!!! :-)
and u know that!!!
love you!!! ;)

super saiyan 4 said...

@rishab
am ananth.

Aditya said...

Ya i do Remember it :D....

i was talking about a post on a similar line of thought of yours.... :)...u inspired me to do that( will have to see when ill implement it thou :P)

both of us inspired each other in then ;) lol

Kush said...
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Kush said...

hey man seriously..u blew the blog's restraining capacity outta limits....that frustration level was way too high fr sum1 like me to handle atleast....koi nahi dude...never thought u sooo diddnt like tht b___ title... always thought u enjoyed it... :)
aur ye faltu chit chat band karo bhai logs...(concerns anni n rish)

rishabh goel said...

@anni c'mon, dude.... this never meant to hurt our frndship.. and u know that... this was just a serious discussion on life's fundas(may b we did it for the first time).... and nothing more... so, never think that this or any other thing, for that matter, can eve effect our dudegiri....
@kush.. chill maar... its not about disliking the B-name... its about the ppl's attitude towards it...

chhajuee said...

wat the f**k is going on here?

SHUBHAM said...

WO wo wo ! just calm down dude.
i know i dont need to interfere but being ur friend i will.
i can very well understand what u r goin thru but
wake up man , look around u r in a cometitive world. in the
college the word friend is outdated , there's no such thing in
here .try to differentiate between "jankaars" and friends.
u can spend a thosand days with someone do favours and take
favors but still if some one asks u about that person u only
say "haan main use janta hoon" thats a "jankar" ,who are
profusely found in a college(fu** 'em).you know which people are
your friends i don need to tell u about that ,and they r
definitely not the one's who turn their back on u when ur
in trouble(u got it right).
you'll never get rid of such kindda people so learn to live
with them.
dude ! i know ur potential , ur here(on this earth) to do
something big don let it go, so f*** all this shit n just
concentrate on ur studies which will take u to the heights.
please man don waste a single minute thinking about people
u dont like.
u r here for study, n u dont need friends , u have enough of
them , so dont depend on anybody just focus .

that was my opinion , and everyne has one but the choice lies
in your hands , choose the one which makes u happy ,
and most importantly choose one which makes u successful,
becuz successful people have a lot of friends.
HOPE u got it , so hit it hard (your GOAL).

chal ab sone jaa raha hoon bahut time le liya tune.

Aupsy-The cOOlest One!! said...

abe rishabh kya ho gaya hai be tere ko....seems this place is gonna make mincemeat outta us all....chill maar dude ,remember those gud ol days back in delhi... u can alwaz have them back...

why do u think abt ppl who dont really matter... and ure goin to the extent of callin some1 ur best frnd at a place called IITR...lolz...its the biggest mistake...how did u trust some1 so much!!! U know how it is here...every1 is after their own lives...do u really think this so called "best friend" of urz really gives a shit abt what u think abt him or wats happening bet u 2...or for that matter had u been in his place (and u very well have been),would u have given the other person a chance ???

And for ol times sake...if ure so worried abt ur name...think abt what ppl call ME...
dekha for min hi sahi...i gave u a reason to laugh !!!

rishabh goel said...

@ayush.. guess u r rite dude... i mean thats wat one is supposed to do here- just mind ur own business and don worry about what others think about u... well, so, on these advices i'll just try to be myself and worry about my own life...